You were a Blessing

To my friend Blessing.
Thank you for allowing me into your life.
Thank you for walking into mine.

Thank you for the laughter.
The kindness.
Softness.
Even at a time when the world did not seem kind to you.

I will miss the gentleness in your voice,
When you joked around,
Or when you sang to Grace and I.

My friend.
My heart is broken.
I do not know how to bounce back from this.
I keep saying your name,
Trying to shake this nightmare off.

I keep reading your words over and over again,
Trying to hold on,
I try to pull you from my memories,
So I can talk to you one last time.
God it hurts.

I am sorry I couldn't do enough.
I am sorry I didn't reach out enough.
I'm sorry my friend.

I hope you find the peace that seemed to elude you.
I hope there is lots of wine where you are.
I hope they eventually accept your art and you don't give up on it like you promised.

Play Fur Elise for them B,
I will also play it here to remind myself of the gentle and amazing soul you were.

I pray God looks kindly upon your soul.
And that you are eventually in a place of everlasting rest.
There was so much I needed to tell you,
I cannot believe I will never hear your voice again.
Fly high my friend.
I will always love you.